Monday, April 6, 2009

Reason number 373 why I might have a mental break down.

So I spent the first hour of my work day crying. It was a sad and depressing sight and I totally broke my "don't let them see you sweat rule". Luckily, the break down happened in private but my face looked like hell for the next hour and I think I had a large booger in my left nostril.
After my breakdown occured though I realized that something has got to give. I am not half as busy as most of my friends but I lack the basic skill of stress and time management.
Instead of hashing everything out, I am just going to ride it out and set some rules for dealing with all that is going on.
1. I am NOT going to let anything get in the way of my fitness routine - I need some kind of stress release. I am also going to nourish my body with healthy food and not fall into the trap of eating whatever is easiest.
2. Since money is tight I need to get a second job. With 4 weddings, showers galore (including a baby shower) and a wedding of my own I need extra income - I refuse to max out my credit card.
3. I need to make work my biggest priority. With staff cuts and the need for us to bring in more income then ever before in one of the worst economic climates I need to devote everything I can to be productive, successful, and do "less with more".
4. I need to remember to have fun.
5. I need to take time alone for myself everyday - reading, writing, crafting, cooking or creating.
6. I need to be very coherent of everything that is expected of me - personally and professionally - and make sure I am getting everything done in a timely manner. If not, I will have a mental breakdown from the guilt.
Hopefully with these rules guiding my life, I can usher in a new era of saneness.


Desperately Seeking Seersucker said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are having a crummy day too :( I didn't cry this morning...but almost. I yelled and kicked my desk and swore aloud all day.

I'm very proud of you for all that you have accomplished in your life, and I know that you will find a happy place where you feel like you are succeeding without letting stress take over your life.

P.S. You are my exercise hero!

Melia said...

Awwww I am so sorry to hear you had such a bad day!!! :( You do have a lot on your plate right now. Just remember, you can't do everything all the time, you know? Pick a few days a week for "creative" time.. a few days a week for the gym.. etc. If you tried to accomplish everything PLUS work, you wouldn't have time to sleep. Oh, and try to plan out your week ahead of time to make sure you can find time for everything.